how old do i feel today?

A couple of months ago my 12yo son asked if he could have a keycard. I took him to the bank and he set it up himself. I stood a few feet away with him turning around every now and then just to reassure himself that I was still there. Now every week i transfer his pocket money into this and he loves checking his balance when we're near an atm.

I'm very concious about him learning things like this himself. For 19 years I've worked in customer service and one of the things that frustrate me most is some mothers belief that its their right to know everything and do everything for the children, whether they are 18 or 40. So many mothers say 'but they're at work and can't get in' or 'he's my son', but a lot of these people would have been the first to complain if their privacy had been breached.

Nearly everyday for as long as I can remember I see young people unable to fill in basic forms. So often needing help to show them where to put simple things like their name and address. I think that it's often worse for boys because as a mum of a growing boy I know I still love to do everything for him, but I also know that for his sake and the sake of any women he has a relationship with in the future, I can't.

The first time he bought something with the card he was so excited he couldn't put his PIN in fast enough and he checked behind him first to make sure no one was watching. Today he asks if he can log onto netbank to get a balance. We go online to register him and he needs a phone banking password first so he calls the bank and again I just sit near him with him looking at me occaisionally for reassurance.

In his grown up voice he asks for a password and answers questions about his DOB and middle name and things like that. I feel like crying cause all I can here is the voice of my little boy, like it was yesterday, who's grown up way too fast. So he gets his phone bank password and comes back to the computer where he registers for his netbank, sees his balance and nods his head and says 'cool' and walks off, again I picture the baby that I once fed and nurtured and watched learn how to talk and walk, how unfair is it that time can go so fast?

my new fetish

is.....accetate cards. not long ago i used some accetate to make tags in a tag swap on Chandon Crafts forum. ohh, i loved it. have worked with it quite a lot the last month but on other things that i can't show right now. loved it so much once i'd finished what i was working on i had to buy more :) so the past couple of nights ive been using it to make cards and will be posting instructions on Chandons website this weekend. i just love how effective this stuff looks :)


ive used a machine to stitch the paper to the accetate and have stitched around the prima flower and sewn the orange one on top. the owl rub on is maya road, so cute

this is a maya road chipboard tree. i got a tin of these for my birthday and just love them. the rub on is again maya road

this card is a combination of paper rubons and stickers. i've used a k & co mat pad on here cause the front and back of these coordinate and i think they're gorgeous

this is a mat pad again but i cut a circle and punched it with a fiskars circle punch. i used white stazon for the first time on here and i love these gelatin stamps

ok, so i'm back!

and here I go again with this, this time wanting to get my head around this blog thing, last time I gave up really and it's been a while since I posted.

Can't see a post, yeah that's cause i changed my email addy so i can't access my other blog, which has the same name anyway just spelt slightly wrong. The last time i shared i was distressed with the removal of my wisdom teeth, i was quite morbid and depressed. all thats gone, over with, now just devoting this to life in general and my obsession with papercrafts.

Am i any good at it? don't know.
Do i love it? yes.